It would be nice if people stopped handing me work to do.

I wish that was a realistic thing to have.

Hm. Life is pretty weird right now. I still can't seem to get to bed on time. I think tonight I will go to bed early no matter what, because I am so tired of waking up in the morning and feeling miserable. I would like to wake up and feel like smiling.

I feel like I have a lot to say and I can't say any of it, which is frustrating. Come on. Blah.

I would like to eat something but rather than eating, I am getting work done in the library. Except for right now. Right now I am not getting work done, I am sitting around listening to Sara Bareilles and pretending that I do not have to go to class in 13 minutes.

This song is brutal.

here's a simplification
of everything we're going through
you plus me is bad news
you're a lovely creation
I'd like to think that I am too
my friends say I look better without you

you love the chase
but hate me for the runaround
we're both just tired of the whole thing
oh, and you tell me what you want
you need and oh, you have to have
and I just pretend I'm listening

Laura texted me a few days ago... because I didn't have time to transfer the tracks to her mp3 player or whatever, I made her a copy of Kaleidoscope Heart. I told her later that my favorite song is Machine Gun, but since she's got no titles, she didn't know which it was.

She texted me later and said "I was listening to the CD and I got to a song that was really vicious and I thought, hey, Shanny probably likes this one... then Sara sang MACHINE GUN and my world fell into place!"

I guess I like brutal music.

Sara is a good lyric-writer.

Gotta get ready to go to class, I guess.